The beginning

I used to be beautiful and thin and fit. I really did. I loved working out, being active. Eating healthy. That all seems like so long ago. I am so TIRED Of thinking,"I used to be..." of feeling like I need to explain to others, "I used to be..." Like the fact that I was thin and fit in my 20s is going to undo the fact that I am fat and out of shape in my 40s. Like people might like me better if they know that "I haven't always been like this." (makes me think of Gilbert Grape's mother and shudder!!). I used to be a lot of things. I want to be those things again. I want to be....